Lyrics

I’M NOT THIS LONELY
(BUT I’M TRYING)

Verse1
I came into this world with the slap of a hand.
I was caressed for twenty years by a woman and a man –
But now I’m free.
You can see it in my eyes, and I want to let you know,
That I see through my disguise and it’s time for me to go –
Because I’m free.

Chorus1: Choir:
I’m not this lonely – But I’m trying.
I’m not this lonely – But I’m trying.
And I don’t know what happiness means?
So, I’ll just pour another dream.

Verse2
I’m through holding on to everything I never had before.
It’s like staring in a mirror and then crying out for more –
But now I’m free.
And I wonder if the distance that I put between myself
Makes me stronger in the long run
Am I lying to myself? –
Because I’m free.

Chorus2
I’m not this lonely – But I’m trying.
(Choir: “He’s not this lonely but he’s trying.”)
And I don’t know what happiness means,
So, I’ll just pour another dream.

Instrumental Bridge

Verse3
Well, there are those who walk together, there are those who run instead.
I am neither, I’m not better, ‘cuz I live inside my head –
That’s why I’m free!
I try not to change my world, I never tear myself apart.
I feel with my eyes and I see with my heart –
I’m free.

Chorus3
I’m not this lonely – But I’m trying.
(Choir: “We’re not this lonely but we’re trying.”)
And I don’t know what happiness means,
So, I’ll just pour another dream.
I’m not this lonely but I’m trying.
I’m not this lonely …
Yee-ha!!

Words and Music by: Gary Dussiaume
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